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3 months ago
Random
I really don’t have a clue who i follow on here anymore…
Anyway! i have been working really slowly on the reconstruction of my site. If you don’t know by now I have been doing a workout program called insanity and i’m fat. So once i wam done with said workout, i just want to watch a show or do something other than “work”. As of right now i am in silence from the sheer lack of effort of turning anything on to distract my mind from my muscles. Anyway my mind is on a creative overhaul from having a non creative job. Oh how the creative mind betrays thee! Which is fine, s long as i can get to be creative when i get home. But writing my thoughts in a blog isnt really that teraputhic as i hoped it would be. Nor is it a task cause i would like to keep my grammer from decreasing to a 5th grade level. Also to keep my sentence structures and reasoning to stay at a 7th grade level. That seem satisfactory to me, and hopefully to you (whoever is reading this). I wanted to take a zuckerberg approach to building my website, but i feel i wont be as commited as that guy was. Nor will i ever be as rich, but only one can hope and dream. Anyway i feel like me writing here is progress in my personal life(i guess) as i retreated back to my highschool days of sitting in a dark room watching nothing but anime(in my mind this is how i feel i am, but it truly isnt). I have this one itch in the back of my mind that i cant scratch.
As my closest friends know me best, i am not a WHAT IF person. Lately I have become a WHAT IF enthusiast( i would like to call it) now all my thought or almost all my thoughts are WHAT IF’s. This makes me feel VERY VERY UNCERTAIN of my short or long comings, am i becoming some paranoid freak?
Stay toon to find out.
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4 months ago
The Return
It’s been a while, and I kind of dissappointed myself with this. I thought i would commit to this blogging idea to keep the creative juices flowing and such. Yet i was wrong, all things creative have come to a halt for me, even my writing. I’m slowly noticing how “at home” i started feeling. I spent my hard earned money on a laptop only to not do anything with it, and now i want to do something with it. Is it too late? i dont know..
All i do know is i need to keep my motivation at a sky high and keep looking forward cause without progress there isnt growth. right?
I guess, so after a year.. After my first band broke up consisting of some of the most entriguing people i have ever met. I and 2 other friends started a new one. This new band consisted of people that we all thought would stick to the end and fight. Well we were wrong, after our ever so slowly break up. My love for creativity just vanished and i hated it with a passion. Yet with the help of a loving ever so strong girl friend, I just look into her eyes and i feel i have failed her. Amounting to a complacent fool, losing site of what he really wants to do.
IS this me? i’m all about proving myself wrong.. I must say that if it wasn’t for her i would be stuck in a rut with no aspirations of trying to better myself both physically and mentally. So i give her the credit and now i have to cash it in.
So…. This is my first post back and it wont be my last.
So my site will be getting done over hopefully by the end of this week..
Say goodbye to www.Theellness.com
i have a new theme in mind tomorrow i will put up a new splash page.
Until then folks (well really Rena and Cio my bro and sis)
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1 year ago
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Notes: 12362 / 1 year ago from stalecigarettes (originally from angelcasimiro)
Jeebus she needs to marry me
(Source: angelcasimiro)
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Notes: 1 / 1 year ago
Your Idea’s Are Rational
In the most obvious turn of events im stuck left to sulk on the past day of remorse. Such a welcoming feeling to those who are loved in all shapes and form. I, i for one only see the darkness of these truths and find a way out from these loving curtains in which we seek to caress. During our time on this earth.. what will our minds intake. My current idealistic feelings are always contorting themselves among a days progression. Days that turn out for the best eventually become barron waste lands for hope. All the morning battle cries in which were shouted are lost in the white noise of the city sky. Why must our minds leave us in this caged off paradise, yet leave a line tethered to the house you once grew. I shall never know..
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1 year ago
This is Me..
Bout it
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Notes: 1 / 1 year ago
slowly getting my skills back imo. (no gas mars)
I call this
Frank’s Universe
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Notes: 2031 / 1 year ago from stalecigarettes (originally from lets-run-away)
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Notes: 3 / 1 year ago from whatevermotherfucker"If you want something, go for it
If you can’t have it, wait for it.
It’ll come to you."- (via whatevermotherfucker) -
1 year ago
Giants In The Ocean
I’ve Taken to trying to find the easy way out of everything now..
I have never been that type of person, I have never been that guy that always spoke his mind either..
So right now i feel weird in terms of what i have been doing lately.. my nights, days and pretty much my life has been in the dark and slowly tipping over as if it was a dryer spin cycle.
Can i consider myself happy now? i guess.. but this year has just been both confusing and miserable.. the best day i ever had was seeing letlive. live.. and 1 day out of 326 is a horrible ratio (yes that is exact count)
Back in the day i use to have a fuck everyone attitude towards everyone and everything.. i lost that when i entered college because simply i wanted to get to know people and not come off as a complete douche. The beginning of college was probably the best time of my life when i actually had people to talk to.. and expanded the universe around me is all i could ask for.
As compared to now i am slowly turning back to my fuck everyone attitude.. is this good? i ask myself every morning who’s going to show up today, tonight, and tomorrow..
I guess it really depends on which side of the bed i wake up on.. these past nights i literally went to a bar every night..
By saturday i just felt pathetic, so i’m giving that up to focus on other shit in which will service my appetite of new things(i guess i can say that)
Among these past months i have started a new band.. everything is going as i hoped (rocky) and not to smooth or to rough because of it was going to smooth (ie: first band) then most likely we’d be done in a week but since we are having little bit of trouble trying to find people.. it’s giving us more time to find ourselves and practice as well.
I guess this is my new adventure and i’m sure to keep the 7 people following more entertained lol.
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